Wednesday, October 31, 2007
ASSHOLEEEEEEEEEEE. joelle ah joelle. hehe.
nope this is not to revive/save/whatever you wanted to call this my blog. nor is this a reply to people who have been talling me to update or whatsoever.
its more of a i-feel-like-ranting-so-i-came-here-cos-ive-nowhere-else-to-do-so kinda thing., and also cos i think it'll be a little mad if i started talking to myself. haha.
there's a not really interesting post ahead, and its at your liberty to read it cos you prolly wont be able to understand much of it unless youre like some person who really understands me.and there aint many of those around.yknow im really wondering why some people try to change themselves a total 360 degrees, just to get a friend in someone they think they like, not really because of his behaviour, his personality, but kinda like say, cos of his looks, the people around him, his popularity, what he does, what his family background is like and all that bullshit that can change in like just a split second. sometimes its not really you that have to change isn't it? its more of like the both of you just dont click. and what he doesnt like in you, may just be the thing someone else is looking for in a friend. unless its some outrageous stuff like uhhhhhhhh, selfishness/ruthlessness that like oh i dont know, people who are looking for partners in crimes want? oh sheesh! but seriously, dont ya feel like why he just doesnt seem to care as much like your bestfriend or somebody close to you does may be cos you just really dont click. like you can be friends, just not really close/good ones, but yeahhhhhh you know what i mean. ( or maybe you dont, but then agn its my ranting and its you who chose to read it! :D )
you dont change yourself totally just cos of someone. aint it better to only change the parts where you yourself know its not really that right, but still knowing its you. instead of totally changing to fit into his world, only to lose yourself.
if you yourself dont know who you are, who will?so aint it better to just be yourself and not try to be someone else you're not, just to 'fit in' with others. just who are these people youre trying to 'fit in' with if its not you. can they ever be there for you.
somehow the word friends seems to have a really strong feeling to me, that its not someone you can just laugh with, to be entertained by, or all those things little kids always thought of. ( and i mean those 3-5yr olds. yknow, those: you give me a sweet, i'll be your friend things. ) rather, they are what is mentioned above, and also much more. like making time for you when you call even when they're having a busy time, and listening to what ya have to say even if its really dumb like say calling at 3 in the morning asking you to just talk to them cos they're scared/cant sleep/whatever, and you actually do so for like 4 hours or so even when you've been up since 5 the previous night and you really need sleep for the next day. little things like that really means alot and it further enhances the word friends. though the same words may have many diff categories, like people you just met and know, you call them friends, people whom you dont like, but are like working w you on something, you also call them friends, and you know, the works.
anyway, i think some people should just not call others names just cos some people cant seem to do things well, and cant seem to keep many friends arnd them for long, and seems to be the most hated creature while that person still thinks the world of himself and thinks everything thats happening to him is the other person's fault, not his own. and seriously. im wondering who
cares when you cry, scream, kick, shriek, bitch( except the person youre bitching abt and calling names, of cos), and oh everything you do?
now. some people complain that they're ____, and dont even have a ___, but then they go out and buy all those _________ things, and keeps on _______ the same things _________, until some people even their extremely close friends call them __________ and _______ _____. yepp you can try to fill them in, but its not really that easy. and you can ask me if you want, so whats the point of guessing? lousy pokes. hehe.
alright. i forgot what else i wanted to rant abt alr, so i'll stop here for the time being, and anyway, all those paragraphs up there, i used 'he/them/she' as they're like normal words used to represent humans. they do not necessarily represent the gender of some people i may be referring specifically to. (:
oh and yes, some of what i said may partly refer to me as well, i dont deny, and you dont need to call me a bitch. yeah i know i bitch alot. like the ' not so innocent ' bunch in my class and a few other funny people yes? :D
genes in the family are really really amusing. they end up in the most unexpected people, making two most not-really-alike-when-younger cousins really close and extremely the same! as i just found out.
i made it known at 4:15 PM
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